The one thing I am passionate about...
I am most alive when I engage in any activity that connects me to the creative spirit. I understand this is a pretty broad statement, so I should further suggest that it is mostly my music or my art that really makes me feel that connection.
I typically spend my leisure time
I enjoy reading and slowly digesting philosophical works. I have a German Sheperd who keeps me busy (in healthy ways). People say that I think too much, and it may be in this "leisure time" where all this excessive thinking is occuring. I really have so many things that I want to do in my down time that most of the time I feel spread thin and I am not able to remain focused on one thing at a time. In the past year, however, I have been able to make promising progress in channeling my focus. It has made me a lot happier.
The most influential person in my life has been
I am looking for someone who understands the sacrificial nature of love. I have admittedly fallen short of others expectations for me in my own commitment to sacrifice for their wants. It hasn't been until recently that I have substantially explored this idea of sacrificial love. This exploration has not only caused me a greater understanding of what it means to be in a functioning relationship but it has also allowed me to reflect on past relationships to see exactly where I was being selfish or unresponsive. So, the quality I am looking for is a willingness of a mate to dedicate themselves to this life-long, sacrificial endeavor.
The first thing people notice about me
If I am able to adequately describe what any other person might think of me, then I might say that they would notice that I am pensive, quirky, and/or plain weird. Of course, the distinction of calling myself weird means something along the lines of "overtly individual". I find it regretful that the word weird is most commonly used with negative connotation. I like weird people.
The last book I read and enjoyed
The last book I read was Practicing Resurrection by Nora Gallagher. The book follows her decision to enter into the discernment for the priesthood. Mrs. Gallagher focuses primarily on those influential persons and ideas in her life that may be calling her into the ministry. I will be entering into this process very soon so I found it enlightening and pertinent to the considerations that I need to keep in mind during my own discernment. So, that is a big deal. Although nothing is certain at this point, there is a possibility that I might become a priest.
The three things which I am most thankful for
- Being born into immense privilege
- Being able to part with unnecessary desires
- The existence of music
The one thing I wish MORE people would notice about me
Apparently, when I meet others for the first time, I can also come off as being overly confident which is actually quite comedic given my introverted/anti-social inclinations. Maybe it is a defensive mechanism that I use to keep others from uncomfortably looking to deep inside my head. I am open to deconstructing and analyzing my behavior in a comfortable setting, but this sense of comfortability is usually not found in the immediate social realm of meeting new people. So, I guess I wish that people in that social realm were more sensitive to people like me.
Friends Describe me as
Creative, Perceptive, Spiritual, Thoughtful
A little more about me
So, I am an introvert but I feel it necessary to further qualify this self-diagnosis. I am introverted in the sense that I re-energize myself when I have some time to be alone and either engage in a period of extensive personal reflection or just be enthusiastically eccentric. These are times when I feel most creative and times that I can recalculate my unique relationship with my Creator.