Thank you for being the messenger of these Words! Thank you for the faith! I will keep them in my heart. They open up the flood gates! You are so kind! I know it only takes one and that is why I’m here.

Thanks for sharing your story; it really touched me. I hope you don’t mind, but I wanted to share something with you that was laid on my heart as and after I read your response. I am what you would call a woman of the Word (bible).

#1 — From Psalm 139:13-15
13 For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;[a]
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

#2 — From Isaiah 43:18-20
18 “Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
19 Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert.
20 The beast of the field will honor Me,
The jackals and the ostriches,
Because I give waters in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert,
To give drink to My people, My chosen.

#3 — From Joel 2:25-27
25 “So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten,
The crawling locust,
The consuming locust,
And the chewing locust,[b]
My great army which I sent among you.
26 You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied,
And praise the name of the Lord your God,
Who has dealt wondrously with you;
And My people shall never be put to shame.
27 Then you shall know that I am in the midst of Israel:
I am the Lord your God
And there is no other.
My people shall never be put to shame.

So, in pasting these words, what I wanted to convey to you is:
1) You are wonderfully made
2) You are right in not looking back – good things are ahead for you, and
3) God will restore the years for you.

You are not deceiving yourself – there is someone just perfect for you!!!

Leading a 20/20 life is a good goal (in hindsight) but it doesn’t work all the time when it supposed to. I guess one has to go through youth and the process of maturity before realizing which side is up, never mind the 20/20 piece. The wishful thinking then becomes when we’ve done some living; but that also means ‘regrets’, and that’s not a positive thing to carry on; the river water rolled by pass the bridge long time ago and is never coming back. Therefore, when we get to the point of ‘regretting’, that is when it should be the time to get this 20/20 segment going instead. Prior to that, we don’t know what we should as our youthful age makes us feel that we own the world and nothing will change that!

And so I want to share with you how this ‘formula’ has worked (or not) for me.

I am in my mid 60s and do enjoy my mature disposition with all the great insights life has bestowed upon me. At the age of 5, I’ve got the polio virus so lived a life full of painful experiences due to the disabling physical condition it left me in its passing; however painful experiences, they were vehicles of insight enrichment! By force, no regrets fit in this scheme.
Later, I got married (no kids). My husband was alcoholic but I was pretty naïve of what that meant so I minimized its effects. As he was destroying his life, he was taking me down as well so I decided not to be part of his ride and did let him go. There were all sort of regrets with this experience but again, no one can undo any of this so I moved on. This taught me a great big lesson but none of it was being regretful for being married to him. I wouldn’t have had that lesson learned. It is not the same as when someone advises us about avoiding certain things in life; feeling the fall, sensing the stinking smell of the relationship dying – no words can make you wiser. So no regrets there either.

Now that’s all behind me, I am in search of my next relationship, and I have a great difficulty; this is not because I’m fussy. I am a highly educated professional and a pretty good looking one as well. I don’t think it is my appearance nor is my lack of education or deficits of being a well rounded individual the reason why. It is the disability. It pains me when some individuals cannot pass beyond the physical piece of it and at least start a conversation – so I can show them polio may have affected my body but not the rest of who I am.

I do have the clarity you are talking about it – if you think that I don’t and simply I am deceiving myself, please respond. The wind in my sails (not sales), is blowing pretty healthily.